Tribes

I have long been interested in my sense of belonging and the confusion it has brought me, both within my original family and within the hundreds of groups I have met, worked with, lived with and associated with. Coming in and out of a sense of belonging in each one, each one creating a thread of connection, yet, never seeming to bring them all together to feel I have found my place. Like this photograph, the houses in a circle, connected yet separate, similar, yet completely diffferent, part of a whole in some way. Would the question be, how does my own sense of "wholeness" come to being? Is that when I feel I belong? Probably, I can do this quite easily with thought, feeling, a oneness type vibe......yet I have had a dry spell of seeing that reflected in my every day life, the connections between people and activities I do are more disparate than ever. There isn't a strong thread to it all, perhaps a "new flavour" of what I seek to join in the outside world has taken some time to emerge. I have been separated from my family for some time, lost both my parents and perhaps the time has been about relinquishing that thread in real time and laying it to rest as part of the tapestry of threads I have already woven ( I realise I am speaking somewhat in riddle and metaphor, but its easier somehow!) So the new thread - the new connections - the new tribe - the new belonging???? I feel that as my 40's approach this will be the time in life that new connections and beginnings will have a flavour of perhaps previous ones, that I will be doing a bit of alchemy and mixing them up together and creating new and more vital connections to the things that bring me alive and give me a sense of place in the world. Beyond my original family, where there is an unconditional bond, beyond the values and norms of my immediate community, something more refined and specific to me. That would be great! Creative and energetic people, groups of like minded individuals and perhaps more of a sense of gathering things to me and less of my seeking it out. Natural attraction and creation - I am hoping that life will flow and with it, the sense of tribe and connections around me will grow.