Winter Wonder

Christmas time this year.............space..........feeling fortunate that I have space and time for myself. Mixed with thoughts of times gone by where I filled the gaps and spaces and joined and adapted to others storylines and often didn't quite make them mine. The time where I was lost for words or actions that were mine, only the thoughts continued, at odds with the rest of me, an oo there and an ahh "do you remember" there and the whole thing was of a time past, not the present, or the future, just an awkward "catch up" in a strange house, in a strange place, with nothing to resonate with in the now. Now there is a space, a welcome space and one that I like to think that others find this time of year. Bypassing the fuss and nonsense of whats meant to be and taking the mid-winter turning as a time to rest, restore and dig deep into the well of energy that is deep within, just waiting for the Spring light, the sun coming back high in the sky and the opportunity and possibility of more action than is usual in the winter. Speaking to my sister in Australia where it is Summer, the notion of the energy and activity being different is very strange. High in spirits and sharing mince pies in the sunshine, visiting the beach and praying for less heat so that the Christmas tree does not wilt! If I didn't have the desire to lounge and indulge in the space that is "no fixed timetable" for 2 weeks, i quite fancy a Christmas in a foreign land, using the time for a new environment, change of scene and seeing other people, colours and streets. Another friend is off to climb Mount Kilamanjaro on Sunday, a ten day climb and every year departs English climes for foreign ones, enjoying a day with extended family, a break and full stop to the years work and then off to somewhere else between the Christmas time and NEw Year. Seems a good way to mark the change from one year to the next. My space is being occupied by new and interesting thoughts and ideas about what I might fancy exploring, new ways, things, places and people, following my instincts more than is usual, but with memories of how present and easy life felt when i did it more often. So, it is Christmas time again and this year feels like a new kind or the end of a kind, but somehow something shiny and new feels like it is with me. May the light continue to grow each day and bright wintery skies remain.